When I had Noah, breastfeeding was easy peasy. He was breastfed for 11 months, no issues, then went straight to a sippy cup. Peyton was another story. I had mastitis SEVEN times between July and October (he was born in May). No doctor could tell me why I was getting it, how to prevent myself from getting it…it sucked. I was on antibiotics basically for 4 months straight.
Mastitis is a breast infection that will seriously bring you to your knees. It is like the worst flu and pain you have ever felt. A few of the times I had a temperature of 104 degrees and couldn’t even get out of bed. Needless to say, this wasn’t good for myself OR my babies (or my husband’s job…) so, I made the awful, hard decision to switch to formula. My goal was to BF for a year, so I was super bummed. I struggled a lot with feeling selfish…almost like I should have sucked it up and dealt with the mastitis for as long as I needed to to make sure Peyton got what was best for him. Oh well. What’s done is done and there’s nothing I can do about it (although occasionally I think about trying to see if I can go back to full-time breastfeeding again…but I doubt it). So, while I don’t think I’ve completely made peace with it I do think I realistically in my mind know that I did what was best for all of us.
In the meantime I have been considering giving Peyton donor milk. I haven’t SERIOUSLY entertained the idea, but it’s something that keeps popping into my mind. Something about it grosses me out…my child getting nutrition from another woman’s bodily fluid….but, is any breastmilk better than none?
There are a couple of different ways to get donor milk. You can go through a milk bank, which is incredibly expensive and I can’t afford. Or, you can just go through public donation (milk is not screened).
What is your opinion on donor milk? I think I would be more likely to use it if it were screened…but I don’t think I would be able to use unscreened. What about you?